The First Steps

So, I'm beginning to realize that I may have to take some concrete steps in order to mediate this people pleasing issue. I mean its not so much an issue as its a concern that it could potentially be dangerous/harmful.

So yall remember how I'm doing this on the side music project (i mean i'm just doin the website) that's supposed to blow up big time like youtube. I'm not 100% sure that I have time to do it. I mean I've been "doing" it since graduation. And my "doing" i mean sometimes i put in work other times i don't. And i think the people who are really dedicated to making it happen are looking for me to put in more work than i've been doing. Plus i kinda promise and never deliver.


Don't you just hate that. But check this, i think i'm more so trying to please people on the promise rather than being completely honest about the timeframe. more importnatnly i think i don't really have time for it at all. Sounds weird, cuz i'm really not doing anything else, besides work, but i'm realizing that that's a lot in itself. So I seriously contemplating letting them know i can't be on the project anymore....uuugghhh my other achilles heel...disappointing people....damn son. but on the real i'd rather tell them now then right before it blows up and they require much more outta me.

I guess the only other thing is that I kinda wanted to still be connected so if it did blow up i could benefit. maybe that's selfish. not so much for wanting to be in on it, but more so for wanting to be in on it, but not giving it the time it desires. I think that's where the lesson to be learned resides. If I can't give this project the time it deserves, which I can't, then I shouldn't be apart of it. Cuz anything less will look badly on me and will probably strain my free time, as it already has.

Thus said. I'ma have a call tonight and some unfortunate news will surface. But yall got the pre-release to the press ya feel me.

on another note, while i'm already in this train of thought (so i guess it isn't on another note), frits......yeah.....so....gonna have to say no, to that site....yeah i know....sorry....maybe she'll read this and i wont have to muster up the courage to tell her to her face. well over the phone. ahhh i know..i'll do it thru txt...man that blows. ok fine, given that she prolly wont read this till a month from now if even that. I'll send her a txt saying we needa talk about the joint. ya feel me...


baby steps cuz i'm taking baby steps,
-R. Learner


p.s. in other news....i'm waiting on that sprint instinct to drop (why am i still a sprint customer...i really don't know)

P.P.s. that's not me in that pic walking...some random black baby