Habits can be formed with consist and frequent actions. So I'm trying to do just that and come that form of spiritual actualization I was talking about last week.
I went to a bible study at this church in CT. And at first I wasn't really feeling the message. I mean it was good and all but it didn't seem revitalizing or refreshing. And I didn't to leave cuz I called in to make sure the bible study was still happening and ended speaking to the pastor who holds it. And of course had I got up he would've seen me and probably said something. So I stayed. And by the end of it I wasn't at all disappointed. Nothing miraculous happened or nothing from the surface really changed. I just kind of adjusted my attitude towards it and began to accept it for what it was: bible study.
So I plan to begin to form good spiritual habits by going again tomorrow.
In other news....(kinda abrupt right, yeah I know) My boy nate dawg sent me a little gift yesterday. And actually Mike B. ruined the surprise but nonetheless I didn't know the details. But he sent me this spiritual journal. It's one of those books you write in daily and end of reading the entire bible in one year.
Man these things always scared me. I just look at reading books in general as a task and now the bible. It's got like a bagillion pages. But last night I convinced myself to do it. And I packed my bible, the journal, and a pen in my work bag (the jack bauer pullover...except mines says NSBE) and went to sleep fixed on doing my first journal entry on my bus ride to work.
Sadly, I didn't. I convinced myself out of it cuz I said I was tired and needed to sleep cuz I haven't been getting good rest. Yall know me I can sleep at anytime, anywhere, without hesitation. But guess who couldn't fall asleep on the bus this morning.
So while my eyes were closed and not falling asleep I was like that's not fair God, you know I can't read anyway. Why burden me with so much to do while on this bus? I even went on to justify not reading by thinking i was already half-way into my bus ride from pretending to sleep for 15mins. So I shouldn't read cuz i wont finish....
Oh yall gon have to pray for me on this one. Its gon be hard, but I know I gotta start somewhere and start small. So hopefully tomorrow will be a different story
peace
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So it's been like over a month now. Any progress? I haven't kept up with the "read the Bible in a year" plan cuz i don't think i will truly study it if I try to speed through 3 chapters in a day; my brain just doesn't work that fast. So now I am just going through and doing a book by book study and trying to write down my thoughts after I read
Yea... i need to start reading my bible again too... :sigh:
HI E.J... I miss you!
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